It's funny though because even with all of this happening it has been amazing to have a loving caring husband to share with and lean on. He has been a blessing in more ways than I can say. I have also been blessed with new friends and old ones that have taught me about real community and how when we live in community we are able to share in each others burdens. God has been blessing, teaching and guiding even in the midst of struggle, pain and lost relationships. So today I am left with this prayer :
Remember, O Lord, what you have wrought in us and not what we deserve; and, as you have called me to your service, make me worthy of your calling; through Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen
If this is where I need to be to learn, to grow and to be worthy of God's calling I am here listening, doing and learning.