Getting Close

Well, it is almost time. Time for me to move from Orange County, CA to Arlington, WA. Four weeks and I drive away to a new place, new experiences, and new people. I have to admit that I am scared to death, yet I am strangely excited. There is so much though, so much that I realize has to happen in the next four weeks I am afraid that it isn't going to happen. I am afraid that my funding isn't going to come through. I mean I know that God can do anything. I know it is going to happen. I have to believe that it is going to happen, but there is still that thought of "what if" in the back of my head. I have come to realize how many people I am going to miss and yet I still know that it is the right thing to do. I mean sometimes the right thing and the hardest are the same.

Off to Camp

Well, at 6:00 am I am off to camp. We are going to Jeness Park for the week. I am super excited. I love camp. I know it is for the kids, but I love it, too. I am a little worried about this camp because I have a couple of students going who are a little more high maintenance than the ones that have gone in the past. I really hope that it goes well and that I have the patience to love on them. I am still excited though and know that it is going to be a great week. It is my last summer camp with this group of kids though and I am sad. I am ready though to have a great time and relax a little.

Power

The power just went out. Good thing I have an alarm on my phone or else I could have missed church in the morning. It sucks though because everything that I need to print out for tomorrow I can't print. It is a little creepy, too having the power out. Hopefully it will be back on in the morning because I would really like to be able to have good hair for church. Sorry about the randomness of this.

Laser Tag

So, we took the youth to laser tag last night for our first Wed night of the summer. For the first time in the bazillion times we have gone I actually ranked. I took fourth place. It rocked!!! I destroyed and took them down. It was great, now for Boomers tomorrow night I think that I can take them in the Go Karts, too. I have to say that I love my job.

Body Builders Part II

Today was day two of my Body Builders fundraising training. After yesterday, I thought that fundraising was an impossible task, that what I felt called to do was just a dream and not a possibility. I left today encouraged, uplifted and ready. Today God worked and reaffirmed the vision, the passion and the purpose that was so strong in me a few months ago.

It is interesting to me how God works through people that we don't even know to influence us and to affirm us. Today at the training God worked through two people, it was truly amazing how two separate people committed to helping support this ministry. One monthly and one with a onetime gift. The money isn't the thing that hit me though, it was their affirmation of the passion I feel for youth. The idea that they believed in me and what God called me to do so much that they wanted to make it happen. The crazy thing is that I was just sharing about YD. I wasn't looking for anything. WOW!!!

I now believe that this can happen. I feel affirmed of the calling on my life and completely fired up about going to Washington. I am excited. I am excited to invite people to join my team and not because they are going to be giving money, but because they are going to be able to serve by supporting a ministry that is completely driven by God and His vision. I am also excited about creating relationships with the people that will be joining my team and ministering to them, personally.

Body Builders

I just got home from my first day of fudraising training and am left with more questions and more stress than I was in the first place. I am left wondering if it is really possible to be ready to leave by August? If it isn't should I take a semester off from school or should I go to school and then leave after the end of the semester? Should I quit my job and take the leap of faith completely devote the next couple months to support raising? There is so much to think about, so many questions. Anyone have any thoughts or ideas?

Out of our Control

It's a funny thing to me how things that are so out of our own control are able to frustrate us so easily. I don't really understand why things that shouldn't elicit any emotion at all can conjure up emotions from so deep within. I don't quite understand, but I do know that emotions have a purpose. I just need to learn how to take the emotions of the moment and give them up and allow God to help me work through them instead of trying to do it all on my own. I don't know, I mean I know I am an emotional person and sometimes they do get in the way. (Not as much now as in the past) I also know that there is a reason that I am the way I am. I just wish that it made sense sometimes.

Pirates

I just got home from seeing Pirates and it was amazing. I loved it and am ready to see it again. It was so good and exciting I wanted it to go on a lot longer. That is it, just wanted to say how amazing it was oh and Johnny was still hot.

It's Done!!!!

I'm done for the semester!!! I am so excited!!! This has been a long semester and the hardest semester of my life. All that I have to say is that I am excited. First thing to do with school out? I am going to the beach tomorrow. A little white space and my favorite place. Sounds amazing.

AHHHHH

AHHHHHH....that is all that I can say right now. I can't read any more about Paul in Acts....I have to read though. My head ins going to explode!!! AHHHH...Too much to do, to many other things on my mind I can't concentrate. Everything else in life keeps running through my head and the focus has been lost. I guess I should go to bed and try again tomorrow. Only 4 more days. It can happen...this can be done. Just a little focus is all that is needed. HELP!!!

Blah

Ok, so have you ever worked really hard on something, finished and been completely done? So tired from all the effort put into your last project that doing another seems to be impossible? I am there right now. I am so done and tired from working on everything from my leadership class that my New Testament paper really is the last thing in the world that I want to do right now. I am so over it, yet I know that it needs to be good and I need to get this done. Let's just hope that I can focus on this and look forward to being totally done and not just partially.

one down one to go

Finally, I have finished my Ministry Leadership class. It was an awesome class and I learned alot, but I am glad that it is over. I honestly didn't think that I was going to be able to get all the work done and I actually got all the work done, actually got everything in on time. The best part is that I got an A in the class. It was an awesome class, I learned more about ministry than I have in any of my other classes. So much that can be applied and so much that has already affected me. It was awesome. Now I just have to get this paper done for New Testament. I'm not really looking forward to this one. Here we go....almost there.

Good Day

Today was a good day. I didn't have to work, which was a blessing. I think if I did have to I would have had a nervous breakdown. That is besides the point though. I feel as if it was a productive day though. I got all the reading that needs to be done for my class on Monday done, I interviewed Pastor Guy for my leadership class (I need to start transcribing the interview), I got my sample art projects done for Art Masters (they look really good. I think that I might hang them up in my new apartment) and I feel like I got a little rest. Now, I just hope that I can stay productive and get everything done that needs to be done. With only 2 1/2 weeks left of class and lots of work left to do productive is the key. I pray that I will be able to use the time that I have wisely.

Mexico

Over Spring Break a few of us from the church went down to Mexico for a 3 day mission trip. The trip was amazing. There were 29 of us including children, teens and adults and it was awesome to work along side people so many different people all in order to serve in the kingdom. We helped to build a storage facility, cut down some trees, cleaned up some weeds and spent some time at an orphanage loving on some of the most beautiful children you have ever seen. It was a great time and I can't wait to go out there again and hopefully to bring some of the kids with me. I know that there isn't much more time for me to take them, but if the opportunity arises I am ready. It was really great!!!

Too much to do and not enough time

I know that everyone has these times, but they are really frustrating. There is just so much that I have to get done that I don't even know what to start with. I need to:
- Get ready for a mission trip that I leave for on Thurs
-Write a paper
-Get caught up on all my reading for school (about 3 books)
- Be at work at 6am all week to change inline sets
- tutor students
- Get lesson ready for Tues night
- Begin my paper on Paul
- Get to school to do my aid work
I think that there is more, but I can't remember right now. I am so tired right now that I just want to go to bed, but I have to have this dumb paper done tonight.
And I really, really want some ice cream.

Friends

I just one quick thing to say. I have some of the most amazing friends anyone could ever have. I have come to realize how precious they are to me. As I realize that I am going to be leaving them soon I have come to realize even more how much they mean to me.

Great Meeting

Today I had a meeting with a great friend of mine, Katie. It was a great time of coffee and talking. We haven't really seen each other in a long time and I was able to tell her today that I am moving to Washington. She was so exited. It was so great for her to be so excited because it was very confirming to me. She is one of my mentors in ministry (I want to be a minister like her) and her conformation was awesome. It was a great time.

Attitude

I don't know what my issue was today, but I had the worst attitude ever. I walked into work in a bad mood and then it seemed like everything just got on my nerves. I have no clue why. I think that maybe everything is hitting me all at once or something. I am overwhelmed by life right now. There is just way too much. I think that I need some rest or something. I don't know.

Kinda Bummed

So, I was hoping for something to happen today and it didn't happen. Could happen in the next few days, but who really knows. Kinda sucks...totally pumped myself up about it. Guess that I can't do anything else about it. Oh well.

What to do?

So here is my question. If you meet someone who is really cool and you know that there is kinda a connection and you know how to get a hold of them even though you didn't ask for a phone number do you contact them? Or do you just let it be one of those kinda fun experiences and then let it all go? Will it look like stalking or weirdness? Anyone have any suggestions?