Attitude

I don't know what my issue was today, but I had the worst attitude ever. I walked into work in a bad mood and then it seemed like everything just got on my nerves. I have no clue why. I think that maybe everything is hitting me all at once or something. I am overwhelmed by life right now. There is just way too much. I think that I need some rest or something. I don't know.

Kinda Bummed

So, I was hoping for something to happen today and it didn't happen. Could happen in the next few days, but who really knows. Kinda sucks...totally pumped myself up about it. Guess that I can't do anything else about it. Oh well.

What to do?

So here is my question. If you meet someone who is really cool and you know that there is kinda a connection and you know how to get a hold of them even though you didn't ask for a phone number do you contact them? Or do you just let it be one of those kinda fun experiences and then let it all go? Will it look like stalking or weirdness? Anyone have any suggestions?

Jesus with skin on

Sometimes, God does amazing things to answer our questions, calm out concerns and show us his way. A couple weeks ago this happened to me and it is still resounding in my head and heart. I have been having a hard time making a decision on whether to stay here in California or move to Washington and take this position. I have felt good about the position and the ministry, but have been terrified about moving, and leaving all that I have ever known. It has been a hard decision leaving my family, my church and friends. To leave that safety net and even letting go of hopes that resound with being here. The hardest part? Leaving that friend that has been there for me no matter what.

That is where the the title of this blog comes in. Sunday night, about two weeks ago we were at church and during worship she starts hugging me, to the point where I couldn't even breathe, then she told me "you have to go, Jessica you have to leave. You have waited long enough. You have to go." Tears began to well up in my eyes. Leaving her was one of my hardest decisions. That was the point that I knew. I had to accept the position. It was a clear as day that that was the plan that God had for me. It was truly an amazing experience.

Later she told me that she felt so much peace about me leaving and was so excited. She told me that she felt like God was telling her to tell me. The best part? Was that when I met with my mentor later that week, all that she could say about that experience was "Jess, that is Jesus with skin on. Go call them now and tell them your decision." Wow!!! Sometimes it is just amazing to see how God works in our lives. How he chooses to speak to us in our circumstances and the words that he gives you. "Peace, Peace I give to you. Not peace as the world give, but my peace. Do not let your heart be troubled and let not your heart be afraid."

Needless to say, I am leaving at the end of the summer. I am terrified and excited at the same time. It is going to be amazing to finally be able to do full time ministry. It is going to be scary to leave. It is going to be hard to let go of that hope in something that I have been holding onto, but it is going to be exciting and a new phase in this journey that I am on.

Decisions

It is now official. I have been invited to move to Washington and work with some awesome people in a great ministry called Youth Dynamics. This is a big deal. This would be a huge move, a change in everything that I ahve ever known. At the same time though, it could be an amazing experience. This is a time of prayer. Please be praying for me and this decision, this could change my life and the life of many others.

Annoyed

So I need to vent a little. I have been planing for months to go to Alpine with the Jr Highers from the school next weekend. I have been so excited for this opportunity. Last year was an amazing time and a great relationship building time. Well, I walk into the church today and find out that I am no longer going. After I had worked so hard to get the weekend off in the first place. Then, the meeting that I drove 1/2 an hour to the church to have was canceled and nobody called me. Let's just say that I was a little frustrated. My day didn't start all that well today. It ended OK though, so I guess that that is a good thing. OK...I guess that was enough venting for today.